There, I admit it!


Last weekend, within 24 hours, 4 friends got engaged- that’s 4 different couples, even if the partners are friends of mine too and another one got married. For the first time ever, I wondered if the Sex and the City of all the women finding their partners and their love etc is something more real than not.

I have always admitted I want to get married, have a family and enjoy that lifestyle but not until I am ready- however, when I see everyone around me going down the path, I do begin to wonder, am I in denial or am I expecting some sort of a thunderclap?!

It was weird, about 10 days, my first ever boyfriend got married and that impacted me more than any of my ex’s ever! It truly got me thinking of an alternate universe where I wasn’t such a party girl, where I was married, where I had kids and where I wasn’t living my dream. Additionally, I went through a whole introspection of my 20s and realised I spent it having fun- I did none of the sensible things one is expected to do- I didn’t save, I don’t own property, I didn’t get married, I don’t have a responsible job etc etc etc.

And I also realised in 2015, I can have NO frigging holiday because I will be spending all my free time in weddings- 7 close friends and family at last count- there may be a few more yet! I had thought I had gone through that wave and was in the baby wave but alas, life has other plans obviously and it has got me wondering…

Is this the beginning of the transition? Will this be where I get cranky and nary about the lack of a legal name to my relationship with Red?

I will admit, I am scared about the future! Wish me luck, peeps.

reality

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2 responses to “There, I admit it!

  1. diablogica

    I know this is scary, I am riding out the “baby wave” now. Sometimes I feel I need to get on that bandwagon but it’s a serious commitment and I don’t want (not sure if I want?) my whole life to change. I think you need to do what is right for you, even if that’s the opposite of what society wants you to do. Wish you all the best and thanks for sharing 🙂

    • Thanks D! So far I was sure I didn’t want any of it- the truthful joke doing the rounds is that I am broody- but for a pup! What’s scaring me is that I am beginning to wonder what it would be like to do all that and wondering about houses, family etc- things that till about 6 months ago seemed very far away and not for me… Does that make sense?!

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